After all, that long and heavy drama, Chaos and I decided to enter the establishment. My view was immediately greeted by a bustling set of people all wearing white uniforms. I don’t really know, perhaps they are nurses and doctors in this facility.
And because I am mesmerized and in shock with the surroundings, I was left behind by Chaos who did not seem to see me standing in shock here. I immediately pulled myself together and walked twice as fast to reach him.
I saw him stop in the middle of the busy hallway and started knocking in an office or room I am not really sure. I hate the color white so everything I see is more of like a vague or a dizzy picture. He paused to listen then saw him enter without even calling me.
How weird is that? I know I was left at the entrance because of my shock but as we walked through the building up until here, it seems like he forgot that I was with him. I even tried to call him a few times but to no avail.
Nevermind that thought. I guess it’s better if I follow him and go inside too. There’s no harm in going in… I hope so.
Due to the confusion on whether I should enter or not, I decided to wait for 10 minutes and then I’ll decide if I’ll go inside or go home. I thought of giving them time to, I don’t know, talk about important stuff? Maybe Chaos has something to say, or she has something to say to him. I know she’s a woman because her name is printed in gold letters similar to the ones posted on the doctors’ office in a regular hospital.
I decided to go near the door trying to eavesdrop from their conversation. I know it’s wrong, but my curiosity got the best part of me. 10 minutes passed and Chaos is still nowhere to be seen, I also can’t hear what they were talking about. I mean I can hear murmurs, but I cannot make the words out of it. I wonder, what are they talking about for it to reach more than 10 minutes? 
There’s a little opening at the door, I shifted closer, but I still can’t understand what they are saying. I groaned slightly, well, it looks like I am going home. Luckily, I know how to use public transportation, and I have google maps with me. I couldn’t just work myself out to ask people, but I think I can go home safely. 
I turned around and was about to step when I heard Chaos calling me. “Leigh, where are you going? Come in.” I shifted my body and saw him smiling at me while his head popped from the other side. His smile is so big as if he did not just forget about me earlier. 
I lowered my head, trying to keep my sulkiness in check. I don’t know why I am feeling this, but Chaos can’t possibly know. He already pitied me enough. 
As soon as I entered, I roamed my eyes around. I can say, despite the exterior of the hospital, this office’s interior is actually nice. It’s very homey and inviting. 
“Hi! You must be Tanleigh Rivera. Pleasure to meet you!” A cheerful voice rang in my ear.
My eyes landed on the lady behind the desk. She has these spectacles on her eyes that look like an anti-radiation prescription or something. 
I smiled at her and gave a little wave. She did not offer her hand which I am grateful for. I’m not exactly a person who likes and anticipates shaking hands with others. Maybe Chaos told her about it, I don’t know.
“Yes, I’m Tanleigh. It’s also nice to meet you—” I stopped midway my introduction when I realized that I don’t know her name yet. I looked at her desk to find it and it did not fail me. There, written in gold letters, “Dra. Evergreen Galmo.”
She chuckled and looked at me warmly. “Please, do not be extremely formal. Actually, think of me as your friend. Call me Eve.”
“No. I insist, Dra.” I remarked. Well, it came more rudely than I anticipated. But she doesn’t seem to mind it because she just chuckled again and nodded at me. “‘Well, if my patient says so.”
“So, Leigh, Eve here is an expert in her field. She knows a lot and with her experience, I believe that she can give you proper medications that can help you. She’s reliable even though she doesn’t look like it most of the time,” he said while motioning his hand towards Dra. Galmo.
The latter playfully hit him because of what he said.
However, I am still not convinced with what Chaos told me.
“How can, I be sure?” I asked, wanting to be convinced further. After all, this is a big step for me.
“Because she was also Erschel’s psychiatrist before.”
Those words tore me apart. Okay, why do I feel this pang of pain when I heard him say that? My thoughts drifted towards the scenario where I am nothing but a mere object to fulfill the void that Erschel left behind. Not even as good as a replacement, but just something to cover that void, thus me receiving and experiencing the things that she first experienced. 
I shook those feelings and thoughts away; I don’t have a right to think nor feel that way.
I forced myself to smile as I don’t want them to know what I am feeling and thinking inside. “Okay, if you say so.”
This is one of the many proofs that Chaos can’t—and probably will not—forget Erschel, even though he does all these things for me, Herschel will remain his greatest love, and I accept that as much as I respect that. He is merely doing these things because he doesn't want me to be like Erschel, he is just too kind to let someone suffer. And I should not harbor ill intentions towards him. Whatever these feelings are, be it ‘like’, ‘love’, or simply admiration, I must stop it. After all, I can’t compete with someone who may not be here but will remain immortal in someone's heart.