Jisoo locked herself in the room when she got home. She didn't say anything to anyone what happened at Sehun's house that day, even when Jongdae and Yeonseok talked to her. She was dumbstruck with the realization how poisonous jealousy is to someone's emotion. When she closed her eyes, she tried to remember what she had done wrong with Irene. During this time, before Irene entered Sehun's life, as far as Jisoo remembered she had only met her once when she gave Sehun chocolate on Valentine's Day. She remembered her reaction at that time. Even though Irene was so brave approaching Sehun when she was with him, then gave him the chocolate she made, Jisoo remembered that she was not acting negatively. She indeed was rather surprised, but to cover it she was only chuckled and pat Sehun's back to encourage him to say something in return.
When they're dating, Jisoo tried to play along with the conversation so that the girl wouldn't feel left out. She really was trying to be nice, so what was wrong with all this? And then she recalled what Irene had said to Sehun,
'When we're together, he's the only one you're looking at. You prioritized her more than us, you came to her right away when she called even if we were on a date...'
Was this because the calls she made for their projects? Were they too much too handle?
Jisoo sighed, even to this moment she couldn't believe how someone could do all that madness only for all the attention of a man. She really lost her words, to the extent that even tho think of things, it hurt.
Saturday morning was full of silence. Jisoo woke up late, and had breakfast when it was almost lunch. Yeonseok sat next to her as soon as she finished eating, he deliberately held Jisoo on her stool and said that he wanted to make tea for her.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Yeonseok asked as soon as he put a cup of warm tea in front of her.
Jisoo wrapped the cup with her two hands and sighed. "I overheard Sehun and Irene's conversation yesterday. She did all this to us."
There was no surprised reaction or something from Yeonseok, he just nodded. Jisoo suspected this was not a new information for him, maybe his lawyer told him. Or maybe everyone really had found out the truth by now.
"Why does someone have the heart to do all that to the person she claims she loves? I believed in her. Yet I make mistake of assuming everyone is out here to be the best version of themselves."
Yeonseok stretched his arms to scoop her shoulders then pulled her in to him, "You know, sometimes jealousy is just a sign that shows how much you really love someone. She just chose the wrong way to show how much she cared." he said, "From now on, never worry about the people who are not happy for you, because they probably aren't happy for themselves either."
Jisoo leaned her head on his shoulder. It was always comfortable when leaning on his shoulder. It was broad, like it was always ready to embrace her on her breakdown. And it felt almost forever she leaned back like that when they heard the doorbell ring.
"I tell you what. Someone is here to see you, and this is the last chance I give you to decide whether you want to keep getting stuck with your past, or you want to start a new one with me. After today, I won't tell you to forget anything or anyone anymore. And after today, all is your choice."
Jisoo pulled away and looked at Yeonseok in confusion. She didn't understand what he was saying, or why he suddenly said this. But when Yeonseok left to turn off the intercom and open the door, she understood.
From behind the door Jongdae appeared, and he was not alone.
Sehun was with him.
She had no idea why she suddenly felt very emotional when she saw him walking in behind Jongdae. 
Their gaze met as Yeonseok showed him the way, and Jisoo tried hard to stay on her stool and didn't run to hug him. She followed his every step as he stepped up to her, then sat opposite her.
"You two talk, we'll be in the library." Jongdae told them, and Sehun muttered a soft thanks before he left.
She looked down on the kitchen table as she felt her eyes brimmed with tears, but tried hard to hold it back. She wiped them away from her eyes, really, Jisoo had no idea why she was this way as Sehun was in front of her.
"Don't cry." Sehun said then. He put his hand on hers and squeezed it softly.
When Jisoo felt more in control, she raised her head and looked at him.
Sehun then spoke again.
"I think I owe you another apology." he said. "I'm sorry for all this mess. I should've known better, and what happened the other day was the worst of me."
The other day he called was when he kissed her. Actually, there were so many things that she wanted to say, she wanted to ask what really happened, why did all this happen, what was wrong with them, and others. But none of that came out of her mouth.
"I let all this happen. I don't know what I thought so far, but what happened to Irene, I am responsible in creating the monster inside her. I should've known better, and I apologize that I dragged you in this mess." Sehun paused for a moment to take a deep breath, "And I came to tell you, that I'm leaving. I will serve the Air Force starting this Monday, and I don't think I can leave without telling you first."
And that's where Jisoo just remembered about this. She was stunt. These two days she was so focused on thinking about Irene that she forgot about that one thing. Sehun would leave, and somehow it felt empty without him already.
"Do you have to leave?" only that could come out of Jisoo's mouth after being silent.
"I have to. This is the only way to make us work, Jisoo." and then he smiled, "So, there are things I want you to do. First, I'll be fine, so don't cry for me. In fact, try to never cry again in the future. You have a very nice and kind husband, he promised he would never make you cry. The second, promise me you will live happily. Live your life like it's you last day. Don't think about the past, about what went wrong between us, about what could have went right. Just focus on making your present and your future better. That way I can live my life happily too. And last but not least, try to graduate before I come back. Don't visit me at the base, because I won't make any time to see you. Study hard, then forget me. Let all the memories of me go from your heart, so when we meet again far in the future, I want to be friends again. Those kind who would laugh at our past and and learn the best from it. Shake my hand and seal it."
When Sehun extended his hand, Jisoo did not immediately shake it as he wished. She looked at his outstretched hand, and Jisoo asked in her heart whether she could promise all that to him. She was about thinking about it all over again, but Sehun was so confident when he said it. He wanted to move on, so why didn't she? Isn't that what she wanted the first time for the past few months?
And when she recalled Yeonseok who might now be pressing down on his pride so that Sehun could talk to her alone, he deserved much better than everything he had done for her. He deserved her best effort to make all this worked for them. She then reached out to shake his hand and sealed their promises.
"And I think you might want to keep it for your lawyer in case you guys need it in the future. I guess this is why you came to my house yesterday." Sehun put a flashdisk on the table, which Jisoo guessed contained CCTV footage in his house. He then wasted no time after that. As soon as all he wanted to say was conveyed, he tightly held Jisoo's hand before he rose and said goodbye. Jongdae left with him.
And now they were alone, Jisoo could feel Yeonseok standing behind her. But the man said nothing seeing her sitting still in the kitchen island, sipping her tea. She felt so numb, as if her emotions had run out when Sehun sat down with her earlier. And after like forever she sat there, she moved and found Yeonseok standing by the window. Their eyes met when she walked up to him, and she wrapped her arms on his torso, leaned her head to his hard chest. She still in silence for some moments.
Then this feeling overwhelmed her. She couldn't identify what this feeling really was, because it seemed like it had been long enough since the last time she had felt it. She was calm as she listened to Yeonseok's heartbeat and realized his rhythm was the same as hers, she then closed her eyes. Then she remembered, the last time she felt this feeling was when he told her that they found a donor liver for her dad. She recognized this feeling, and that's how she finally smiled.
At that time she realized, after all that had happened, she had never felt so relieved for so long.
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Hello, this is Oh Sehun.
First of all, I sincerely apologize to everyone who has been involved in or taken offense from the recent controversy. I would like to sincerely apologize too for causing great disappointment and disturbance with my huge wrongdoing. There is no excuse for a self-defense, all this happens because of my irresponsibilty and insensitivity in the norms that apply in our society.
With this letter, allow me to clarify that it's true that I have been in contact with Ms. Kim, we decided to be friends after she got married. Videos circulating at night in the park happened before the wedding, I dare to say it honestly. And the photos circulating some time ago happened because of my weakness as a man who saw Ms. Kim as a woman instead of a friend as we promised. This is my fault that I couldn't help myself, Ms. Kim is a woman who respects her husband and honors her dignity as a wife. It was my fault for initiating the physical contact without her consent and I'm sorry for causing a traumatic memory for her especially, and her family.
As for Miss Bae, we have filed a lawsuit against her for defamation and the spread of illegal properties. I learned from this incidents to be able to respect and value each other, and hopefully we can all learn the same from here. I once again would like to extend my apologetic heart for causing concern for the mistake I made. This incident has let me know what's most important in this life. I'll do my best to deeply repent my wrongdoing while serving my duty at the military and be a better of me in the future.
Thank you very much for all your supports.
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